This entry is dedicated to my babies.(even though they are not babies anymore)I want to let them know exactly how much they mean to me. So here it goes.
To Brandon~ My first born. I was so young when I had you, just a baby myself really. I was nervous, uncertain, and elated all at the same time when I got the news you were going to be. I grew up so fast in the nine months before you arrived. I had all these plans of how my life would be, what you would be like, how I would feel when I looked at you for the first time. I thought I was prepared, but I was wrong. When I looked into your eyes for the first time, I felt a love that I didn't know existed. I felt so overwhelmed with emotions. I had no idea it was possible to love someone that much that I just met. You were my greatest gift, that I didn't even know I wanted, and needed. As I watched you grow, and form your own personality I was always bursting with pride. You amazed me from the very beginning. You have always been so smart. Always able to figure things out, and always so strong willed. You have always known exactly what you wanted, and you always find a way to get it. Now as a teenager, you are still just as amazing. You are so smart, sometimes too smart for your own good. You are one of the funniest people I know. I know that you can be anything in this world you want to be. You will be successful in anything you try in life. I want you to know I am so proud to be your mother, and honored to get the opportunity to raise such an amazing kid. I love you.
To Austin~ My baby boy. I was so excited when I found out I was having you. And from the first moment I felt you move inside my belly, I was in love. A lot of people said, they thought I was having a girl, but I knew almost right away that you would be my Austin. I had a feeling, and I was right! When you were finally here I was so happy. When I looked at your little face for the first time I knew you were going to be my sweet one. You just looked around, taking everything in, and listened to my voice. In that moment I thought of all the things I wanted to teach you, and show you in this world. My little observer. As a baby and a toddler you were so happy and pleasant. You were always so loving and affectionate. And now as a pre-teen, you are still just as sweet. You have the biggest heart out of anybody I know. You are compassionate, and giving. You will make a wonderful husband and father one day. You have the determination and patience of a grown man. You will be an amazing adult. Always know I am so proud of you, and I love you with all my heart.
To both of you, everything in my life is a little bit clearer, the difference (really) is YOU. (both) While some people look for the answer, I don't waste my time like I used to do, the difference is you!! Love you both. xoxo http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JSfqMj9ZIDQ
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Sunday, July 18, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
And I Thank You
Inspired by some of the more "famous fans" that keep blogs about their experiences since the reunion of NKOTB, I thought this would be a great way to get all of my feelings out there. Maybe 1 person will read this, maybe 100 people will, and maybe nobody but me will ever even know it exists, but I just wanted a place to express my love, and thanks to the guys, and all of the amazing people I have met because of them. So, here it goes!
Rewind just over two years ago. It's April 4th, 2008 and it's just a typical day in my household. Kids are off to school, and I am getting ready for work. I am all dressed and just sitting on my bed smoking a cigarette flipping through the various morning news channels. I turn on NBC and the Today show is on. (I never watch the Today Show, have no clue why I even stopped on this station!) I decide to watch for a bit because there seems to be some type of hype happening. There is a big black curtain, and the reporters are saying a once popular band is announcing a reunion today. OK, I have a few minutes to kill, let's see what this is all about. *side note, I had not heard anything about a NKOTB reunion, I was completely oblivious, just busy with life, kids, work, etc.* Anyway, the countdown starts, and that curtain drops. I am sitting on my bed with my mouth hanging open. I am in total shock. I figure I am dreaming. Surely the guys I fell in love with when I was 11 years old are not on my television all these years later! I couldn't even react. I just sat there. It was at this moment I knew I was going to be late for work. I turn up the volume to ear splitting levels so I don't miss a word they have to say. I hear them say they are back, and are making a new album, and *gasp* they are going to perform on the Today Show on May 16th. Now here come the tears. I cannot believe what I am seeing and hearing. They all look so amazing, and suddenly I am 12 years old again. I still can't describe the feeling I had at that moment. I was filled with a sense of fulfillment, from something I didn't even know I was missing. I watched the rest of the interview, and left for work, now more than 30 minutes late. The rest of the day all I could think about is that curtain dropping.
Fast forward a few weeks to May 16th, 2008. On this day I will not be going to work. (thank you sick days) I am all geared up for the big reunion performance. I see a huge crowd gathered on the streets of NYC and I thought, wow, all those girls are feeling the same way I am. What a turn out! I felt proud. This seems to be the longest episode of The Today Show ever. I am beginning to think the powers that be at NBC are personally trying to torture me. FINALLY it is time. Once again the big black curtain drops. I have the same reaction I had a few weeks earlier. My mouth is hanging open, and my eyes are filled with tears. There they are! After so many years, they are all 5 together and singing on my television. Unbelievable. They were amazing, which goes without saying. Now I cannot wait to see what comes next, and when can I get that new album??
Next is the announcement of the fall 2008 tour. Um, yes please! So my city is announced, the time comes and I buy my tickets. I do not have good seats, but who cares? At least I will be in the building! Fast forward to the day of the concert in my city November 10th 2008. My sister and I go together, and we are super excited. I know this will be fun, but before the show started what I didn't know is, the overwhelming feelings I would have when they raised up from that stage. The opening video was awesome, got me super pumped. But I was still not totally prepared. I hear "If you came here by yourself tonight..." The stage begins to rise, the smoke, the lights, the voices, the screams. I became so emotional. It was just instant tears. I can't even think about it to this day without tearing up. There they were. Everything was right in the world for "the next couple hours". I was carefree again, I felt all of those old memories come rushing back. I remembered how it felt to hear them sing when I was a kid, the excitement, the "puppy love" feeling. But also at that moment I knew that what all of us fans, and those 5 guys had together all those years ago was real. It was special. It was back.
Since the reunion I have been lucky enough to see each leg of the tour. I saw 6 shows over the past 2 years. And each and every one was just as special and amazing as the first. I got to share this experiance with some of the most important people in my life. I took my 2 boys to a show, and they loved it. It was amazing to get to show them what I loved so much at their age, and they got to see me be happier than I have been in a long time. I went to 2 shows with my sister, the reunion of something we both loved so much brought us closer together. I also got to take my mom to 2 shows. It seemed like everything coming full circle since she took me to my first NKOTB show when I was 11. I saw shows with lifelong friends, and family. I also got to meet some new friends thanks to these guys. Some people I would have never met if it wasn't for our shared love for the New Kids. A lot of us became fast friends online. I met some of them on Twitter, and some on NK related sites (shout out to my GGs lol) And I have had the pleasure of meeting some of them in person. I hope these friendships will be for life.
I didn't get to go on either cruise, and it's not looking good for the next one either. My husband is a laid off electriction, and the last 2 years have been financially difficult for us. I have never had the money to do a five star either. So I have never met a New Kid! I know I am one of the few, and actually the only one in my group of friends, that hasn't met them. It just hasn't been in the cards for me, and that's ok. As much as I would love to meet them, I would have probably made an ass out of myself anyway lol. Regardless of that, I have had the time of my life over these last 2 years. From getting a glimpse inside their worlds via Twitter, and blogs, and videos and interviews, to Donnie and his "Backrub", and Jordan's "Jordan Idol" and Joey with his adorable vlogs with baby Griffin, even without meeting them, I feel like I know them. Is that strange? Not if your a fellow BH, you know exactly what I mean.
I have been a Jordan girl since day one, and this reunion has reaffirmed to me exactly why that is. The man is fire! He has charisma, charm, sex appeal, and that VOICE. Man. There is nobody else like him! When I see a NK show it turns into the Jordan show for me. It is nearly impossible to take my eyes off him! But those other 4 guys are pretty awesome too. I have so much respect for all of them, especially Donnie. I can feel his heart when he speaks. He loves what he is doing, and he loves us fans, just as much as we love him. He is a gem. And Joe. Little Joey Joe. Well, didn't he just grow the hell up?!?! lol Dude is super sexy now! And his voice is second only to JK in my opinion. Man can SANG! As for Danny, I love what he has done to honor his mother and raising awareness for the Koeman Foundation. I also love seeing him with his kids. Daddy Danny is the best! Then there is Jon. What can I say about him? Who don't love Jon Knight? I am so thankful he gave this another chance, and am so happy he had fun this time. I love that he has opened up so much since back in the day.
So I titled this Blog "And I Thank You" because it just seemed to fit. As Joe put it, it really is 5 brothers and a million sisters. I am so glad I have had the chance to feel this way again, and am forever grateful to those 5 guys for these past 2+ years. It has been an amazing ride, and I have been surrounded by the most amazing people. All of us sharing a love for the five most talented, giving, sexy, funny, sweet "bad brothers from the Beantown land"! So to the New Kids on the Block, I just want to say....And I thank you...from the bottom of my heart! Let's continue this!! xoxo ~ Melissa @jk_girl_4ever
Rewind just over two years ago. It's April 4th, 2008 and it's just a typical day in my household. Kids are off to school, and I am getting ready for work. I am all dressed and just sitting on my bed smoking a cigarette flipping through the various morning news channels. I turn on NBC and the Today show is on. (I never watch the Today Show, have no clue why I even stopped on this station!) I decide to watch for a bit because there seems to be some type of hype happening. There is a big black curtain, and the reporters are saying a once popular band is announcing a reunion today. OK, I have a few minutes to kill, let's see what this is all about. *side note, I had not heard anything about a NKOTB reunion, I was completely oblivious, just busy with life, kids, work, etc.* Anyway, the countdown starts, and that curtain drops. I am sitting on my bed with my mouth hanging open. I am in total shock. I figure I am dreaming. Surely the guys I fell in love with when I was 11 years old are not on my television all these years later! I couldn't even react. I just sat there. It was at this moment I knew I was going to be late for work. I turn up the volume to ear splitting levels so I don't miss a word they have to say. I hear them say they are back, and are making a new album, and *gasp* they are going to perform on the Today Show on May 16th. Now here come the tears. I cannot believe what I am seeing and hearing. They all look so amazing, and suddenly I am 12 years old again. I still can't describe the feeling I had at that moment. I was filled with a sense of fulfillment, from something I didn't even know I was missing. I watched the rest of the interview, and left for work, now more than 30 minutes late. The rest of the day all I could think about is that curtain dropping.
Fast forward a few weeks to May 16th, 2008. On this day I will not be going to work. (thank you sick days) I am all geared up for the big reunion performance. I see a huge crowd gathered on the streets of NYC and I thought, wow, all those girls are feeling the same way I am. What a turn out! I felt proud. This seems to be the longest episode of The Today Show ever. I am beginning to think the powers that be at NBC are personally trying to torture me. FINALLY it is time. Once again the big black curtain drops. I have the same reaction I had a few weeks earlier. My mouth is hanging open, and my eyes are filled with tears. There they are! After so many years, they are all 5 together and singing on my television. Unbelievable. They were amazing, which goes without saying. Now I cannot wait to see what comes next, and when can I get that new album??
Next is the announcement of the fall 2008 tour. Um, yes please! So my city is announced, the time comes and I buy my tickets. I do not have good seats, but who cares? At least I will be in the building! Fast forward to the day of the concert in my city November 10th 2008. My sister and I go together, and we are super excited. I know this will be fun, but before the show started what I didn't know is, the overwhelming feelings I would have when they raised up from that stage. The opening video was awesome, got me super pumped. But I was still not totally prepared. I hear "If you came here by yourself tonight..." The stage begins to rise, the smoke, the lights, the voices, the screams. I became so emotional. It was just instant tears. I can't even think about it to this day without tearing up. There they were. Everything was right in the world for "the next couple hours". I was carefree again, I felt all of those old memories come rushing back. I remembered how it felt to hear them sing when I was a kid, the excitement, the "puppy love" feeling. But also at that moment I knew that what all of us fans, and those 5 guys had together all those years ago was real. It was special. It was back.
Since the reunion I have been lucky enough to see each leg of the tour. I saw 6 shows over the past 2 years. And each and every one was just as special and amazing as the first. I got to share this experiance with some of the most important people in my life. I took my 2 boys to a show, and they loved it. It was amazing to get to show them what I loved so much at their age, and they got to see me be happier than I have been in a long time. I went to 2 shows with my sister, the reunion of something we both loved so much brought us closer together. I also got to take my mom to 2 shows. It seemed like everything coming full circle since she took me to my first NKOTB show when I was 11. I saw shows with lifelong friends, and family. I also got to meet some new friends thanks to these guys. Some people I would have never met if it wasn't for our shared love for the New Kids. A lot of us became fast friends online. I met some of them on Twitter, and some on NK related sites (shout out to my GGs lol) And I have had the pleasure of meeting some of them in person. I hope these friendships will be for life.
I didn't get to go on either cruise, and it's not looking good for the next one either. My husband is a laid off electriction, and the last 2 years have been financially difficult for us. I have never had the money to do a five star either. So I have never met a New Kid! I know I am one of the few, and actually the only one in my group of friends, that hasn't met them. It just hasn't been in the cards for me, and that's ok. As much as I would love to meet them, I would have probably made an ass out of myself anyway lol. Regardless of that, I have had the time of my life over these last 2 years. From getting a glimpse inside their worlds via Twitter, and blogs, and videos and interviews, to Donnie and his "Backrub", and Jordan's "Jordan Idol" and Joey with his adorable vlogs with baby Griffin, even without meeting them, I feel like I know them. Is that strange? Not if your a fellow BH, you know exactly what I mean.
I have been a Jordan girl since day one, and this reunion has reaffirmed to me exactly why that is. The man is fire! He has charisma, charm, sex appeal, and that VOICE. Man. There is nobody else like him! When I see a NK show it turns into the Jordan show for me. It is nearly impossible to take my eyes off him! But those other 4 guys are pretty awesome too. I have so much respect for all of them, especially Donnie. I can feel his heart when he speaks. He loves what he is doing, and he loves us fans, just as much as we love him. He is a gem. And Joe. Little Joey Joe. Well, didn't he just grow the hell up?!?! lol Dude is super sexy now! And his voice is second only to JK in my opinion. Man can SANG! As for Danny, I love what he has done to honor his mother and raising awareness for the Koeman Foundation. I also love seeing him with his kids. Daddy Danny is the best! Then there is Jon. What can I say about him? Who don't love Jon Knight? I am so thankful he gave this another chance, and am so happy he had fun this time. I love that he has opened up so much since back in the day.
So I titled this Blog "And I Thank You" because it just seemed to fit. As Joe put it, it really is 5 brothers and a million sisters. I am so glad I have had the chance to feel this way again, and am forever grateful to those 5 guys for these past 2+ years. It has been an amazing ride, and I have been surrounded by the most amazing people. All of us sharing a love for the five most talented, giving, sexy, funny, sweet "bad brothers from the Beantown land"! So to the New Kids on the Block, I just want to say....And I thank you...from the bottom of my heart! Let's continue this!! xoxo ~ Melissa @jk_girl_4ever
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